PART II
Mick is coldblooded but instinctive. And in
his work his instincts are absolutely spot on and accurate most of the
time. He's got a better batting average than anybody else in the league
when it comes to the product... But another
thing
is that he's unbelievably lucky. He never knew what it was to have to struggle
for something. He talked about, they all used to talk about what a hard
time they had, you know, but it took him about a year and a half to come
from absolutely nowhere, from being in school to being a superstar. I'm
not saying what that means from a musical point of view, but from a personal
point of view it meant that he had just been conditioned to a certain kind
of adulation at such an early age, even when they were still comparatively
young in their twenties, that they were totally imprinted with it. One
thing is that he's stuck with a lot of courtiers that hardly anybody would
want to have, and so a lot of his life is fucked up by that. But at the
same time, again it's a question of mirrors. He's a performer, he's a star,
and his beauty has been his greatest joy. That's the most important thing
for him, far, far away more important than anything else... The greatest
love in one's life can't compare with that thrill of performing... You
see, I think all this thing about trying to find out the real person behind
the artist is irrelevant. It simply isn't like that in real life, they're
the same person, always breaking down into the different. It's the same
person only they live in different mirrors...
I don't really count myself as a very sophisticated
businessperson. I'm a creative artist. All I know from business I've picked
up along the way. I never really studied business in school. I kind of
wish I had, kind of, but how boring is that?
Mick is... a very nice guy. He's very easy
to get on with really, when it comes to it. But as soon as there's other
people in the room he'll give you the impression that he's just impossible,
hard and ruthless. Some of that IS Mick because he does it often. But then
Keith puts up similar fronts.
If we weren't his friends we wouldn't still
be around. The band ARE his friends but it's very hard because THEY'RE
the ones with ME in the forefront that he takes most of it out on. It's
very hard to be Mick's friend despite how much you want to be 'cause he
never opens up. He just doesn't.
Mick's got an ego. I insult the man. But
he has the hide of a rhino, and he's just determined to be who he is. I
just try and deal with it. If I see that whatever he's doing I consider
to be not a great help to our enterprise, I'll stick the boot in. But it
don't matter, he'll come back, have a bruise the next day, we laugh and
say How you doing. He's a pretty canny character to come against.
I'm a bit of a moralist when it comes to the Stones, and Mick has been
a bit flippant about them. But then, what do you do with lead vocalists?
They're fairies. You've got to let them have their head and then rein them
in. It's basically a continual jousting.
It's difficult to talk about Mick... because
he always changes, so maybe he's always been the same. Mick is always flitting
about; never happy or always happy. One minute he'll be knocked out with
a track and not like it the next minute.
Mick has one of those minds and bums. His bum won't sit still
and his mind doesn't either. It's always onwards, onwards, onwards - like
yesterday is history already. So it's very difficult for him to keep his
interest in a band that is so steeped in history - at least, that's my
slant on him.
He's wonderful with children, very patient,
very good and sweet. He really likes them and

I think I'm a pretty good father. I have
a nice affinity with children, not just my own. I like taking bunches of
kids out for the day. Kids keep you young and they keep you laughing.
Mick becomes a totally different person
on tour. Instead of the nice, gentle, gentlemanly guy I live with, he becomes
this incredible egomaniac. If you took it literally, you'd think: God,
this guy is rude. On tour he never opens the door for anyone. That's
unheard of. He goes toward a door and you follow three steps behind. And
if the door slams in your face, that's too bad.
I find it quite easy to detach myself from
Mick's private life, but then it's ludicrous because it's not private at
all. I sometimes see what the old bugger wants in life, he's intent on
being Casanova or Don Juan. He's always looking for it, which is a little
cruel on his loved ones. But he's always been like that. I don't talk to
Mick about his love life, because it's like Whoops! You've skidded on
another banana skin!
In all honesty, (in 1985-87) it was Mick
decided that he could do... I don't know whether he could do better
is the best phrase, but he felt, actually, that the Rolling Stones were
like a millstone around his neck... He said, I don't need this bunch
of old farts. Little do you know, Sunny Jim. I spoke to him about it
the other week, because now he wants to put the Stones back together -
because there's nowhere to go... I think that there is on Mick's part a
little bit of a Peter Pan complex...
I
mean, I'll be totally honest: I LOVE Mick. Most of my efforts with Mick
go to trying to open his eyes... I mean, 99% of the male population of
the Western world - and beyond - would give a LIMB to live the life of
Riley, to live the life of Jagger. To be MICK JAGGER. And he's not happy
being Mick Jagger. He's not living a happy life. To me, that's unacceptable.
I've GOT to make him happy (laughs)... The siege mentality kind of worries
me about Mick. Nobody can get in there, even me, who's known him longer
than anybody. What bothers me sometimes about him is not being able to
get through to him. He's got his own version about himself, which is not
actually who he is. So he has to play a game; he has to act. He's not about
to give you ANYTHING. He's not about to give ANYTHING away. He'll be flip.
And I don't mind him reading this shit, because this is part of, as far
as I'm concerned, my attempt to help him along...
You'd imagine Mick would be the happiest
person in the world, and yet a lot of the times he isn't. Being with him
I know.
My battles with Mick are on many levels.
I understand the desperation of somebody like that, the insecurity that
says,
Until I am sure of myself I can't let anybody get too close, or
I'll get really confused. It's hard going for that frontman gig like
Mick does. It's hard being out front. You gotta be able to make it work;
you gotta be able to actually believe you're semidivine when you're out
there, then come off stage and know that you ain't. And that's the problem:
eventually, the reaction time gets slower... Mick happens to be an incredible
entertainer. Without Mick, the Stones would never have gone anywhere.
I don't think (Mick) thinks he needs anybody's
help. But I wonder if he's realized that he's way out on a limb. I feel
like I'm his only friend. I know the way he lives. I know everybody else
who knows him. I know that Charlie Watts dished him out a great fucking
right hook and that was Charlie Watts saying, You and I have had it.
It was 1984 or '85 (actually,
October 1984, during a band meeting before the start of the Stones' recording
sessions for Dirty Work in January 1985) and... Charlie punched
him into a plate full of smoked salmon and he almost floated out the window
along the table into a canal in Amsterdam. I just grabbed his leg and saved
him from going out... (The fight) was about absolutely nothing. I had taken
Mick out for a drink in Amsterdam, so at 5 in the morning, he came back
to my room. He's drunk by now, Mick drunk is a sight to behold. Charlie
was fast asleep. Is that my drummer? Why don't you get your arse down
here? Charlie got dressed in a Savile Row suit, tie, shoes, shaved,
came down, grabbed him and went boom! Don't ever call me "your drummer"
again. You're my fucking singer. That was Charlie's way of saying,
It's
over, man. It went really downhill after that. If there was one other
friend Mick had, it was Charlie. On top of that, Mick was very stupid.
He forgave Charlie. There's nothing to forgive. Nothing left to forgive.
(The fight with Charlie) never actually
happened like that. He pushed me, but I don't think he actually punched
me. There's quite a lot of difference, in my book.
I had a row with Mick, about attitude I suppose. With a lot of
these things, when you're in a band it's a bit like having a row in the
family. You know, it's over and you very rarely ever mention it again.
That's what these things are like. They're like brother things.
(Mick)'ll never lie about in a hammock,
just hanging out. Mick has to dictate to life. He wants to control it.
To me, life is a wild animal. You hope to deal with it when it leaps at
you. That is the most marked difference between us. He can't go to sleep
without writing out what he's going to do when he wakes up. I just hope
to wake up, and it's not a disaster. My attitude was probably formed by
what I went through as a junkie. You develop a fatalistic attitude toward
life. He's a bunch of nervous energy. He had to deal with it in his own
way, to tell life what's going to happen rather life telling you. (He wasn't
so much like that in 1965.) Not so much. He's very shy, in his own way.
It's pretty funny to say that about one of the biggest extroverts in the
world. Mick's biggest fear is having his privacy. Mick sometimes treats
the world as if it's attacking him. It's his defense, and that has molded
his character to a point where sometimes you feel like you can't get in
yourself. Anybody in the band will tell you that. But it comes from being
in that position for so long - being Mick Jagger.
I think it's kind of cliché, really. People like to pop-analyze others, put them into boxes and say, Oh, Keith's so passionate, and Mick's cold and dispassionate.
People aren't like that in real life. Keith can be as cold and
dispassionate as almost anyone I know. I don't mean that as a
criticism, because you have to be sometimes. People have different
natures. Talking about yourself as a person, not just as part of a
band, I don't know where to separate or not. I have to be analytical
sometimes, outside of music, then I have to be feeling as well. I have
to see other people's points of view. If I'm talking business with
someone, I try to see their point of view. You step back and analyze
it. You don't need to be emotional with these things. But that
doesn't mean that I'm not passionate about the musical side of it. I
can be really emotional about it. You have to be all things at once. I
get very excited about designing stage sets and things like that,
graphics and merchandise. I work sometimes with Charlie on them, and we
get very excited about these things. I have lots of different roles
within the Rolling Stones, and then I have roles outside of the Rolling
Stones that have nothing that have nothing to do with the Rolling
Stones at all. So I don't want to be pigeonholed that I'm one thing.
Mick's not good on his own problems, but he's very good at other people's. He's been wonderful over the years. I don't mean I ring him up every week and say The tap doesn't work, but he's fantastic.
Mick and I are still getting used to actually
enjoying working together again... Mick goes through his things. But to
me Mick seems to be 10 times happier than I've seen him, and comfortable
within the band and what he's doing and really into it. You know, he's
lost some of that star-trip thing that was pissing me off during the '80s.
He's starting to appreciate the basic comforts of comradeship again, and
that's great.
(I)'ve been living like this for so long that if I stop - if
I stop doing it, it's bound to affect me, you know. It's an overwhelming
feeling, the audience. That must be why most of these people never give
up performing. Because they just can't go without that sort of rush. It's
a bit like having an orgasm. Sometimes an orgasm is better than being onstage;
sometimes being onstage is better than an orgasm.
It would be nice to have another shot. Instead of me being a
rock singer, I could have done something else. You hope you've done something
right, you've spent an awful long time on it, so you better be bloody right.
Did you waste a lot of time? Yes, you've wasted a lot of time. Did
you use your intellectual and physical gifts? Yes and no. Because I
don't think rock and roll is as intellectually taxing as other things.
It's not particularly challenging. So you get intellectually lazy. I don't
think anyone is ever satisfied with what they've done.
Up
in Suite 2907 of the Four Seasons in Toronto, Mick sank down into the plush
depths of his beige velvet couch and invited me to do the same. Jerry Hall
opened up us both frosty bottles of Heineken and rolled us a nice homemade
Bull Durham cigarette and we fired it up and passed it around. Jerry, in
her skin-tight jeans and tighter-than-skin green sweater, sat down and
started tickling Mick with her bare feet. Mick ignored her and put on a
tape from the Oshawa show. It takes him hours to wind down after a show.
We wanted to do it as uncommercially as possible, Mick said.
We
refused these bullshit 4-page newspaper ads of "so-and-so congratulates
the Rolling Stones". This was fun... fun, Mick said as he got up to
turn the volume up. We were surrounded and assaulted and caressed by the
Rolling Stones. I can never forget watching him standing there, reflected
in three mirrors in the living room, Jerry Hall and I each reflected, watching
Mick as he stood with his hands on the controls of his Aiwa cassette deck.
He withdrew deeper and deeper into himself as he listened to himself and
his band. Intently listening, laughing at a mistake, punching triumphantly
with his fist into the air when he heard himself hitting the note, smiling
and nodding when Keith was hitting the notes. He turned once, to acknowledge
us briefly, as he started dancing to the Rolling Stones. Dancing first
to his lover and his guest. Then to himself. And then just to the Rolling
Stones. Just to the Rolling Stones.